dear 2014

dear 2014.

what a crazy year you were.it's hard to begin to describe what you were like.
you were a hard,difficult year with the hardest stages I have had and you made me shed more tears than what I wanted, but you also were a life changing year with happy tears and great life lessons.
I walked into 2014 with high hopes but sadly a low reality, 2013 was a rocky ending and I was hoping that 2014 would be better. after a few good months that reality started to fade and it came painfully clear that something was going to happen. it was hard to find out what and when it was going to happen but when it did it came down like a tonne of bricks.

I can't just talk about the bad moments, I have to admit you gave me some great moments that made me laugh until I cried and I made some great memories that I will never forget.
~like that week I had with my best friend (thank you)
~and that Cornwall trip I had with my other best friend (thank you)
~and of course #cibbiemick ;)
~ and I started my blog in march :) 

but after my moments of happiness the memories of the sad parts came flooding back and I have to admit it was hard to fight it away but I tried and thanks to help of my best friends I got through it.
fighting a battle no one really understands is hard but this was the year I decided to just keep going and move forward.
overall I am thankful for this year, it made me realise how important it is to be happy although I gave up my happiness for things I shouldn't have. I let you determine how I felt and I shouldn't have so this lesson is I should never let anyone or anything take away my happiness because even through the greatest moments of this year I was still sad and I truly believe that's because I thought you were going to be the best year I have had. but know I'm going to make 2015 be the best year and not let anyone or anything ruin it for me.
thank you for the highs and thank you for the lows.
goodbye 2014 and hello 2015 !!